“And on the seventh day God finished his work that he had done, and he rested on the seventh day from all his work that he had done. So Go blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it God rested from all his work that he had done in creation.”
Genesis 2:2-3, ESV
Y’all, I’ve been so sick this week. I mean real sick. I woke up Monday morning with double viral conjunctivitis, Tuesday some sort of other yucky virus hit me, and I’ve been dealing with on-and-off fever, aches, sore throat, and one heck of a cough all week. I’ve been popping pills and drinking cough syrup like no tomorrow, but finally broke down and went to the doctor today because, once day 5 of this mess hit me, I had had enough.
So since I’ve been down and out since Monday, can you guess how I’ve been spending my time? Three words: On. The. Couch. I haven’t been able to go to work or exercise or do a single productive thing in five days. I’m four seasons deep into “Fixer Upper” and haven’t had a balanced meal since last week. I’ve been sleeping a solid ten hours every night (when my hacking and/or gunky eyes aren’t keeping me awake) and taking some intermittent naps during the day. It’s been a weird combination of sleepy and miserable and boring and glorious.
Aside from the grossness of being this kind of sick for as long as I have been, another thing that I’ve struggled with is not being able to DO anything: not clean my house or make dinner for my hubby or get work done or work out or spend time with friends or any of the things that make me feel like a productive human being contributing to society. For me, sometimes that brings me a lot of guilt and even a little stress. As I’m reclining on the couch, I’m worried that I should be doing something or that I have to be somewhere, and I have to force myself to remember that I’m sick and that body needs to rest in order to heal and recover. I’ve been grappling with that feeling all week, but God keeps trying to whisper to me to “be still”. He’s been reminding me that He created and designed me for purposeful work, but also to need rest. Not only did He literally build rest into the weekly routines of all people via the Sabbath, but sometimes He ordains entire seasons of rest as well, times when we should focus on giving our minds and bodies time to just be. Times like when we go on vacation or enjoy holidays with our loved ones or, like for me this week, when our bodies say they’ve had enough and basically shut down and force us to take some time off.
For me, this is a beautiful reminder for several reasons. One, by needing rest, I’m like God! After taking six whole days to create the universe, even He needed a day just to rest and enjoy the fruits of His labor. I can’t be upset about needing or taking rest when it’s literally a characteristic that I share with my Heavenly Father. It’s really freeing to remember that sometimes it’s not only okay, but necessary and good to do nothing, to be still, to nap and sleep in and lounge on the couch and binge Netflix, that I don’t have to feel guilty for doing those things when it’s what I need. Two, I think God uses rest to remind people like me, type A doers, that we can’t do it all ourselves and that our bodies and minds have limitations that force us to stop, slow down, and ultimately lean on Him, not only for our strength, but also for our identities. I can’t be defined by what I do or accomplish, even though, if I’m honest, that’s really what drives me more often than not. That realization is also pretty liberating, praise God!
I feel like I could go deeper into this, but y’all, I’m still sick and tired, ha. Even though I’m ready to feel better, I’m thankful that the Lord reminded me this week of the beauty, value, and goodness of rest and how my need for it is both humbling and liberating. My prayer for you, friends, is that you can lean into rest this week when you need it and embrace it as the gift from God that it is and not let it bog you down with guilt, fear, stress, or anxiety.
I want to say thanks to everyone for being patient with me since I did not publish yesterday, Thursday, as usual, and am getting this already late post to you very late on Friday night. Y’all’s grace is so appreciated, and prayers that I’m feeling better soon would awesome too!
Looking forward to checking in again with new content on Monday, but until then, y’all have a fabulous weekend!
P.S. Peep my couch buddy who kept me company all week. He’s the cutest. ❤